Shadow in the Mirror

Dissociative Identity Disorder

By Adele Hewett Veal, Author

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When I got the idea to write, ‘ Shadow in the Mirror’, a story about a woman who suffers from Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), I had no idea I was walking into an area of study that would intrigue and change my life. I have always been interested in the study of how our brains work, so when this story line came to mind, I wasn’t surprised. However, my thoughts were to examine and analyze the concept and write poetically about it, since I’ve been a poet from the age of twelve. To my surprise, I couldn’t find the words –rhyming poetically but the words through pros seemed to flow non-stop and before I knew it, I had written a novel for the first time. The experienced plucked me right out of my comfort zone and stretched me until I was face to face with characters and concepts that were both frightening and fascinating.

To stay true to my main character, Leslee Cramer, who suffers from this disorder, I got absorbed in case study after case study, which only made me hungry for more information, so I researched and downloaded facts, reports, and news articles, along with other materials, even if it meant sitting in the library for hours to read it. Among the information were many articles written by doctors that I found quite interesting because of the degree of controversy. From what I read, some doctors would even go as far as to question whether DID really exists. But after sitting and talking to individuals who suffer with this disorder, reading their blogs, and speaking to their family members, I wonder where the controversy lies. And is it because of this controversy that many of these people are misdiagnosed for years? For the record, DID is not the same as Schizophrenia or Manic Depression, or so many of the other mental disorders, although some of the same symptoms may be present. If you’re interested in learning more about Dissociative Identity Disorder click here.

The multifariousness of DID has captivated me so that, when I travel to book signings or speak at book clubs, I find myself speaking more on the subject of DID than I do, my novel. I’m surprised when Psychologists, who sit in my audiences, come to the table and commend me for the work I put into the book and the knowledge I’ve attained. This makes me chuckle because I didn’t go into this with the thought of becoming an advocate for those with this disorder but, I’m proud to say, now, I am.

One of the most favorite blogs I’ve read since writing, ‘Shadow in the Mirror’, was by a young girl named Crystalie Matulewicz , who didn’t allow DID to define her. She not only braved it out and got the help she needed, she also went on to get her degree in psychology. She wants to be a writer and a counselor and she’s well on her way to achieving both goals. That’s amazing.

Although, ‘Shadow in the Mirror’ is a fiction novel, Dissociative Identity Disorder is very real. Today I am writing my second novel, ‘Reflections From Within’, the sequel to, Shadow in the Mirror, another novel dealing with personality disorder. I’m constantly searching for new material to study, so imagine my excitement when I stumbled up on a new book, Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook by Deborah Bray Haddock. This book is written to supply the tools needed to diagnose DID. It reveals the stages of therapy and supplies coping strategies and survival tips for clients, therapists, family and friends.

I am excited to see what adventures the main character of my new novel experiences because of this new discovery and fresh eyes.

Let’s talk!

Shadow in the Mirror can now be purchased. Log onto www.iuniverse.com to buy your copy. You can also purchase from amazon.com, barnes and noble.com, google. Let’s create a buzz and come together to discuss this novel.  Ask yourself; would you be able to forgive someone for doing the unthinkable (whatever your ‘unthinkable’ might be), Why or why not? Leave your comment here.

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Shadow in the Mirror

Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) or Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is said to be a serious affliction that can affect children who have been severely abused.
Leslie Cramer suffers from this disorder. Because of it, she has been known to ‘wake up’ in strange places without any explanation as to how she got there. Today is no different — today she woke up in a strange bed with a strange man who admits to being her husband. Today she discovers that she has two children, and today she realizes that her alternate personality, Lee Cramer, has been ‘awake’ for ten years. It becomes apparent that Lee’s escapades have alienated her from her husband and caused her children to be frightened to death of her, with good reason. Lee is the terrifying alternate personality who believes Les deserves to die shamelessly while setting up the scheme to carry it through.
Les has no other choice except to turn to her long- time friend, Veronica Moore, for help. Veronica is the only other person besides Les’ doctor, Dr. Paul Whitfield, who knows about her disorder. With Veronica’s help, Les finds the strength to hold onto her true identity and fights to recover everything that she is on the brink of losing . . . her family.
Shadow in the Mirror, is a love story that reaches beyond the familiar attributes of a person and peers into the mirrored image of the soul. It is a story woven around the strongest forces of life; love and forgiveness.

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Vessel of Clay – An Interview

Vessel of Clay, an Interview

Q. Adele, what made you write Vessel of Clay?
A. When I woke up this morning, I asked God the same question: Why was Vessel of Clay written? The answer that was dropped into my spirit was the same answer He provided for me when I asked Him about the poetry He had given me and the purpose behind the mime ministry I managed. I heard Him say, “I want you to paint a portrait of my glory.” There is no doubt in my mind that God is not only glorified in this play, He is also magnified. What a better way to portray God’s love than to show our fractured lives mended and reconciled to Him.
I’ve always been in love with the stage and viewed it as an awesome way to teach life lessons. In my research about the visual arts, I learned that 86 percent of what a person sees is retained so what a powerful tool the stage could be if used properly. I also learned that 40 percent of the fibers in the brain are linked to the retina. In other words, if we can put life lessons on stage and market the heck out of it, people will come, learn, enjoy, and change.
Q. How long have you been writing?
A. I have been writing since I was about 12 years old; I love to write poetry and … ironically, my poetry usually tells a story that teaches a life lesson (laughter). I raised my children, my nieces and nephews, and now my grandchildren on my poetry.
Q. Where do you get the ideas that you write about?
A. At any given moment a particular concept will drop into my spirit but the words don’t always come right away. The words begin to pour out on paper when I sit somewhere quiet with a pencil in my hand. The characters in the poetry or the plot of the piece stays in my head until I write him or her out and that’s when the emotion or the spirit of the piece comes to life… when I write it. In the case of “Vessel of Clay”, the whole play came to me in a dream. I saw the characters, I even knew the songs (only the titles)
Q. Is your poetry available to the public?
A. Yes it is. I used to put my poetry in frames and they were sold in Christian book stores and hospital gift shops. I also started a business where I would allow individuals to earn one of my framed pieces by inviting some of their friends to their home and allowing me to come in and share poetry with them. I finally put some of my poetry on CD in 2003. My producer, Rob Anderson, was the best producer ever. He listened to what my desires were for the CD and he and Jeff Arnold (my music producer) helped to develop an awesome project. The name of that CD is, “From a Whisper to a Touch.” By Adele Hewett and you can purchase it on CDBaby.
Q. Do you still write poetry?
A. Yes, I do. I’ll never stop writing poetry. Poetry is my first love because of the aesthetics of it. It has a way of using words to loop around until we’re totally wrapped up in its raw truth.
Q. Tell us about a time that your writing portrayed raw truth.
A. I would hope that my writing always portrays raw truth but, I guess if I had to choose I would say that ‘Vessel of Clay’ does it in that it shows God’s love when we are willing to open our hearts to Him but the ‘RAW’ truth is that He loves us even when we don’t love ourselves.
Q. WOW . . . OK … Getting back to the play. Who are you trying to reach with Vessel of Clay?
A. Lovers of God, to show that God will never leave nor forsake them! But mostly, I’m trying to reach those who feel lost. Those who feel like there’s no escape route for them and they keep sinking deeper and deeper into doing wrong. With this play, I’m, reaching out to those who feel like they’ve gotten so far away from God that He can’t hear them crying for help. I want them to realize and KNOW that God is aware of every tear they cry. I also want to reach those who feel like they don’t HAVE any more tears. It’s important that they understand that even in the midst of the fire, there is victory. I believe that this play gives people the opportunity to look within themselves and measure the distance they’ve put between them and truth whether their truth is spiritual or personal.
The main character in this play is my hero. As I was developing the details of his character, God showed me that I was healing myself. Through this character God taught me about trust, growth, and the importance of accepting truth. The end of the play reveals an UNEXPECTED truth and believe me, the audience will not be disappointed.
Q. On a personal level where would you like to see this play go?
A. That’s a good question. I think every person in the WORLD needs to see this play but what playwright doesn’t feel that way about his or her work (Laughter).Right? Honestly, I would like to see the play tour as many cities as possible. But ….. before any of that happens, we’re going to launch the play here in Arizona. My desire is to have it to run here for a couple of weekends and after we see how well it does here, we’ll make plans to take it farther. We have even talked about film.
Q. What else do you want the people to know about Vessel of Clay?
A. I want them to know that they can help. Vessel of Clay is a play that not only speaks to us as laymen but also to Pastors. One pastor mentioned, after reading the script, that the play emphasized his need to be a better pastor by reiterating the love of God. We get so caught up in wanting to preach the right and wrongs of our lifestyles that we forget to teach the basics …. The love of God. Vessel of Clay displays that love like no stage play I’ve ever seen.
However, there’s so much that goes into putting on a production of this magnitude. We need to pay for the theatre, light technicians, sound technicians, stage managers, screens for certain scenes, props, actors, actresses, marketing … my list goes on and on. So l want people to know that they can help us by logging onto my website at www.adelehewett.com and contributing to “Vessel of Clay.” I would love to reach our goal and, even if we don’t, our campaigning will continue until Vessel of Clay is on stage. We believe strongly in what we’re doing.
Q. I understand that Howard Hewett is your brother, is he helping you with this venture?
A. I would never think of taking on a project without first running it passed my family; especially a project this huge. Howard has been a great help to me. As a matter of fact, he’s one of the song writers for the play. I’m sure he’ll be present, in the front row on opening night. But along with Howard, my husband is my greatest supporter and my biggest fan. I also have other siblings who are showing their support by being involved. I’m not the only writer in my family. I have other sisters who write. One of them has written a number of novels as well. Our plans are to eventually cast each of our projects and either grace the stage with them or put them in film. I couldn’t end this interview without adding how important it is to have the support of family in anything you do. We are truly a family that believes in encouraging each other.
Q. Adele, What would you say is your greatest motivator?
A. Knowing that I have a purpose and not wanting my life to end without achieving that purpose is what motivates me. I mean, I look at the years behind me and I feel like I’ve wasted so much time on nonsense; like bad relationships, and circumstances that lead me completely off track, and even dealing with toxic people who didn’t share my vision. We get so caught up in other people’s visions that we forget about our own. We were all born with a purpose and it’s up to us to achieve it but it’s difficult when you allow yourself to get linked to people who do nothing but suck the life out of your vision for their own selfish reasons. However, I learned that God never gives a vision without pro-vision so I had to stop blaming others and step out and do what I was supposed to do. Also I want to leave a legacy. I think it’s important to ask yourself, “What are people going to say about me when I’m gone?” I don’t want people to say, “Adele Hewett Veal could have …” I want them to say, “Adele Hewett Veal ACCOMPLISHED…”
Q. WOW! Adele, thank you for those words of wisdom; I know I heard something in this interview that will stay with me for the rest of my life. “What is my legacy … what will people say about my life when I’m gone?” That question certainly puts a different spin on the time span one is given to accomplish what they need and want to do in life.
A. That’s right. Life is just too short. Ask yourself this; what is the most important thing that you want to accomplish in life? And then begin putting your life in order, step by step to accomplish it. That’s why “Vessel of Clay” is so important to me. This is what I have wanted to accomplish my whole life.

From A Whisper To A Touch – Booklet (devotional)

This booklet is designed to take you to another level in your Christian walk as well as your personal life.

Each piece of poetry spoken on the CD is also written in this booklet.  You will notice, after each piece of poetry there are scriptures, a prayer or confession of faith, and a page entitled ‘journal.’  Listen to the words spoken on the CD, then follow along with what is written in this booklet.  Meditate on the scriptures and then read aloud the prayer or confession of faith.

Words are powerful. What you say about yourself becomes a fact.  Another word for word is seed and, when a seed is planted, it brings forth life.  What words are being planted out of your own mouth about you, and/or your family?  Proverbs 18:21 says, Life and death is in the power of the tongue. The confession of faith or prayer is designed for you to speak into existence what God has intended for you.

The scriptures also say in Habakkuk 2:2, Write the vision and make it plain.  Your journal page is there for you to write what you feel, what you think, or what you know God is saying to you.  Don’t forget to record the date and time of when you began and each time you make an entry into your journal.  Watch God move!

 

Gospel City Interview

Words are powerful. What you say about yourself becomes a fact. Another word for word is seed and when a seed is planted it brings forth life. What words are being planted out of your own mouth about you and your family? Proverbs 18:21 says, “Life and death is in the power of the tongue.” The confession of faith or prayer is designed for you to speak into existence what God has intended for you.

This is an excerpt from the poet and minister Adele Hewett’s From A Whisper To A Touch (Waymaker), a collection of moving verses and prophetic prose that will awaken any spirit to the presence of God. Adele has been given the exciting appointment of ministering through poetry and painting a portrait of His glory through the unique gift of spoken word.

Humble in her presence and talented in her being, Adele reveals many of the mysteries of the Kingdom in divine cadences and poetic metaphors. The final version is fluent, eloquent and sheer poetic bliss. GospelCity listened carefully this week for more evidence of her prophetic revelations. As Adele whispers a few more words to our GC audience this week, we hope you too will be touched by the Master’s hand.

Christopher Heron: Adele, when did you first sense your calling to the spoken word ministry?

Adele Hewett: I’ve been writing poetry since I was 12. My mother was a very strong Christian woman. Whatever talent we had, she pushed us in that area [of talent]. By pushed, I mean she encouraged us. My area of retreat was always poetry. My brother, Howard was singing. I also have a sister, Carol, who writes novels and plays. Creative expression runs in the family. My mom would always encourage us to move forward in our gifts. I didn’t look at it as a ministry though until I was older. I was going out, reciting poetry, going to cafes or bars.

At that time I wasn’t born again. I had just left the Kingdom Hall of Jehovah’s Witnesses where I had been for 15 years, but I saw something different in the church. I saw a new breed of Christians and decided to come home.

I remember sitting in a church when a prophet named Jefferson Edwards prophesied to me, telling me God had brought me a strange way, and there was no way that he could’ve known that I’d just come out of the Kingdom Hall. But he said God had brought me a strange way, and that I was going to meet strange and different people: my ministry was even strange. No one in the church knew that I wrote poetry and because I didn’t look at my poetry as a ministry, I didn’t understand what he was talking about.

One night something hit me and I knew it was the Word of the Lord. So, I just began to write; I wrote what I heard in the spirit. After I got finished, I knew He had given me a word for the Body of Christ through poetry. I showed my pastor, Jerome A. Parker of Harvest House Christian Center; who was the first person to recognize my poetry as ministry, also the first to have me minister to the people of God and that’s how it started.

CH: Well, your ministry has blossomed into a recording and a book that’s called, ‘From A Whisper To A Touch’. What is the relationship between the title of your recording and your message?

Adele: As I look back on things now, I realize that all my life God was always whispering to me. He was always talking to me in a whisper. But now, He’s really touching my life in a personal way.

CH: You come from a very talented, gifted family; your brother Howard Hewett was well known for his lead singing with Shalamar. You have other siblings as you’ve mentioned who are writers and performing artists of merit. Did you feel that your talent would become a showcase for others to be inspired and motivated by?

Adele: Before I was born again, I knew that my poetry touched the hearts of people; after I was born again I was taught that your purpose is where your talent lies. I knew I was walking in purpose one day after I had finished minister the piece, A Mothers Prayer (which is on the CD). So many women came to me and said, ‘That poem was for me.’ I look at where I came from (The Kingdom Hall) and where I am now (In the Body of Christ). I know God has his hand on this.

The way I started was, I would format my poetry and put it in beautiful frames. When somebody said they really liked a certain poem, I’d say, ‘Let me show you how you can get it free,’ I’d show them how they could have poetry parties in their homes by inviting some of their friends over and allowing me to come display my work. I’d minister the poetry to them and sell the framed pieces. I had a book I’d put on the table and after all the framed pieces were sold I would take orders out of the book. I usually sold out everywhere I went and I’d give the hostess a free piece of poetry (of her choice), beautifully framed, for allowing me to come into her home.

More and more people began to ask if I had a recording and that became my next venture. I made a cassette with my poetry on it, and went from one person to another, trying to get someone to see the vision God had given to me; He had his own timing for it and I just stepped right into destiny. I moved in the time He had set for me and here it is, on CD, and with a booklet.

CH: The spoken word is such a powerful means to witness for God. Is your spoken word ministry any different from the impact of a preacher or an evangelist who uses bible texts, anecdotes and metaphors?

Adele: I really don’t see a comparison; I believe people receive in different ways. I know that, if I do a poem or not, it doesn’t matter, God is going to say what He needs to say; whether it’s through the pastor speaking or somebody singing a song or whatever the case may be because He has placed all these gifts in the church for His glory. What I’m trying to say is that I believe God is looking at us to see who’s going to be obedient by speaking His word. It’s not about us, it’s about Him.

I believe God is bringing the arts back into the church. Another piece on the CD is called Caution; at the very end of that piece there’s a word from God. God is saying to make room for the ministries new and unique. He had given me those words before the ministry of dance came back into the church and that was definitely before I started stepping out with poetry in the church. Now look what we have; we have drama, dance, poetry, rap (which is a form of spoken word), and so many different types of singers who are awesome.

CH: Where did you nurture these talents, where did you grow up and how did your family function with all of these people cultivating these special talents that have now begun to be revealed?

Adele: I grew up in Ohio. I recall performing at the Civic Center in Canton, Ohio when Myles Munroe came to town. I opened up for him with a poem called Purpose (on the CD). He was taken aback. I got a chance to talk to him after the event and he encouraged me so much. Another person who encouraged me was Prophet Jefferson Edwards. But of course my main support came from home. My siblings have always been there me. When we were younger, we sang together as The Hewett Singers and were encouraged by some of today’s gospel greats like Shirley Ceaser, The Mighty Clouds of Joy, The Staple Singers, etc. We learned at a very early age that we could do ALL things through Christ who gives us our strength.

CH: Frequently, we as Christians don’t have a clear vision of where we’re heading as we press forward but God is always creating a path for us. What encouragement would you offer for those who are trying to nurture their talent to use for God’s purpose, even though the journey is filled with a lot of uncertainty?

Adele: I would encourage them to stay grounded, seek God in everything they do and never look at the way things appear; God’s end result is the important thing. If He has called you to a particular gift; He doesn’t give you a vision without provision. God is working it out.

Originally published on GospelCity.com.

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